It has truly been a long time since I last posted anything. The real reason....I have not been inspired! Pretty basic right? I have been in such a dark place that the person who used to find the simplest lyric or sunset inspiring has felt absolutely nothing. I became numb for the past three months. Apparently that is how I react when I realize everything I ever dreamed for myself was not coming true. I can only put on a happy facade for so long. I just don't know how many more set-backs I can experience before I just give up on having high hopes for myself.
I am ready right now! Do any of you ever have that overwhelming feeling that comes over you when all of a sudden you want to just run out of your house and into the open air and just scream at the top of your lungs? And after you have screamed, you cry, then you laugh, and then you look up at the sky and think, "What am I doing with my life? Why am I still searching for something?"
I want my life to happen now! I am sick of being on the bench in my own life. I am a spectator. How pathetic is that? The hardest part has been running into people from school and they ask how I am doing. I am absolutely tired of having to sound optimistic about my job search. When in reality all of their lives sound better than mine at this point. The grass is always greener right?
So you may be wondering what my inspiration is on this blog. Well to be truthful, the only point to this blog is to show you that if you are currently struggling in any avenue of your life, you are not alone. I feel your pain and I truly hope that you find what you are searching for. Please don't give up the search and fight for a better life. Amidst all of my challenges, I do remain faithful that better times are around the corner. For all of us!!!
