Searching

It has truly been a long time since I last posted anything. The real reason....I have not been inspired! Pretty basic right? I have been in such a dark place that the person who used to find the simplest lyric or sunset inspiring has felt absolutely nothing. I became numb for the past three months. Apparently that is how I react when I realize everything I ever dreamed for myself was not coming true. I can only put on a happy facade for so long. I just don't know how many more set-backs I can experience before I just give up on having high hopes for myself.

I am ready right now! Do any of you ever have that overwhelming feeling that comes over you when all of a sudden you want to just run out of your house and into the open air and just scream at the top of your lungs? And after you have screamed, you cry, then you laugh, and then you look up at the sky and think, "What am I doing with my life? Why am I still searching for something?"

I want my life to happen now! I am sick of being on the bench in my own life. I am a spectator. How pathetic is that? The hardest part has been running into people from school and they ask how I am doing. I am absolutely tired of having to sound optimistic about my job search. When in reality all of their lives sound better than mine at this point. The grass is always greener right?

So you may be wondering what my inspiration is on this blog. Well to be truthful, the only point to this blog is to show you that if you are currently struggling in any avenue of your life, you are not alone. I feel your pain and I truly hope that you find what you are searching for. Please don't give up the search and fight for a better life. Amidst all of my challenges, I do remain faithful that better times are around the corner. For all of us!!!

My Symphony

I have been trying to figure out why I feel so restless. Everyday it is a struggle to feel as though I'm living my life with purpose. I have small moments when I find myself smiling or when I take a deep breath and feel the oxygen completely filling my lungs. This moment, although lasting only a second, reminds me of how I used to be and how I want to be again.

I can't explain to anyone let alone myself why I am unhappy. I have many reasons that on default I provide people who ask: "I really want a job, I want to be in a relationship, I want to lose weight, I want to have an adventure...." And the list goes on and on and on. But is there one specific issue, or am I so extremely swamped with uncertainty and want in my life that I have finally given up? Now I don't mean I am giving up on life but maybe the I'm letting the possibility of me being happy slip through the cracks. I have been trying to find a way to explain to myself and others this issue I am facing. What am I feeling? What am I scared of ? What is it that I really want in life to make me happy? Do I even know anymore what I want? I have been feeling so restless that I just throw out ideas like leaving the country, moving to Texas, moving to Bellingham, or just trying to make it as a musician. Finally I am deciding to slow myself down and make some choices. One step at a time. I cannot be irrational with my life. I am a logical thinker and planner, I have always been this way and I always will be.

So the song that has spoken to me through this process is, "Symphony" by Marie Digby. You can find it at www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xa-cSOFv_nQ If I had to say in words all of my thoughts and fears that are contributing to my restless and useless feelings I have had this song would be the perfect fit. Please listen to this song. You might find comfort and inspiration through its lyrics. Whenever I blast this in my car, I feel motivated to finally make something amazing happen for me. I went to a memorial service this weekend and found myself wondering what people would say about me once I die. I want them to list the amazing accomplishments and adventures I have had. In order to make this happen, I have to write my own symphony and I can promise this, it is going to be a show stopper.

Today's challenge...start writing your own symphony and make it beautiful!!!

Make a Wave

I just heard a song today that sends the perfect message of doing your part to make a change in the world. There are so many people with talents that remain dormant because they don't know how to use them properly or they are too scared or lazy to shake the world up a bit. Well this world needs a good shake in the right direction. We all need to try to find our strength or talent and share it with the world. God made us all unique and blessed us with gifts that were meant to be shared. We were not given life to sit around and waste away, only to die and leave behind nothing for future generations. We are supposed to leave a mark on this earth somehow. I know I have said this over and over but I truly believe deep in my heart that we all have something to offer this world, it just takes some work figuring out what it is.

So here is a little inspiration for you... Check out, "Make a Wave" on youtube by Demi Lovato and Joe Jonas. I really think this song can lead us on the right track. www.youtube.com/watch?v=8DmuCFopmWY

Humanity???

I have a new song for you today! "One day," by Matisyahu. I don't think I need to analyze this song but I want to explain why I chose this song. I have spent most of my blogs trying to inspire you to do something positive and meaningful with your life, but there is another type of inspiration that I have not touched on yet.

My favorite word is "Hope." There are so many reasons to hope and ways to hope. But in my eyes, all of the the people hoping have something in common. We are all hoping for something better. Whether it is to fall in love, or to get a job, or ace a test, this hope is what holds us together through the toughest of times. Hope is sometimes the only thing we can grasp on to with the last ounce of strenght we have left. We hold on so tightly to this hope becuase we need to believe that things will get better for us. Hope gives us something to live for when we fear there might not be anything left.

I think that this song will give our future as a world some hope, which I think many of you will agree we could use right now. Sometimes I find myself doubting humanity any more. We are surrounded by hate and violence and I wonder will there ever be peace??? Are some people even capable of love and tolerance? This song puts into words my fears for our population and also what I hope and pray will eventually happen! I am sure that a lot of you find yourself hoping for that one moment when we stop the violence and embrace everyone for who they are. When people stop seeing violence as a way to get their point across. When people no longer have evil in their eyes and when people use intellengce and words to find peacful and fair solutions to the most difficult problems. Who knows if it will ever happen but I would rather spend the rest of my life hoping for peace then giving up on humanity!!!

Start Swimming

I just heard a new quote that really made me think. "If your ship hasn't come in, swim out to it." This quote speaks specifically to every issue I have been facing. Lately I have not been liking the person I am becoming. I am now officially the person that sits around and complains that I don't have a job and that I wish my opportunity would finally come. I find myself wishing every night that what I have been wanting to do would finally happen. That my break was in the very near distance. I am acting like I deserve this amazing future and I will just sit around being depressed until it happens.

The other day I read this quote and it made me take a long look in the mirror and question what I am doing with my life. Am I really the type of person that is going to sit back and wish for something good to happen? No not anymore. If I want something to happen then I need to get my butt in to gear and make it happen. Nothing positive happens to people that sit back and wait for their fortune to appear.

So today my challenge for you....Get off your lazy butt and make something happen. Quit wishing for your chance to come and work hard to make your future exactly what you deserve!!

Never Alone

So it has been a while since I last posted. Basically I have been stressing about not doing anything with my life that has purpose. But I will not give up. I know that something great for me is just around the corner and I will not give up brainstorming and working hard to discover the mystery that awaits me.

But today I want to share a song with you that I found a while ago. I am in love with Lady Antebellum and this song also has Jim Brickman playing piano! It is called, "Never Alone" and when I heard this song I immediately pictured myself singing this to my children when they are laying in bed trying to fall asleep. That moment right before they fall asleep is so innocent and beautiful. Whenever I lay kids down to fall asleep I always wish I could promise them the world. I feel this need to promise them that I will always be there for them and no matter what struggles they face in life, my love for them will never change.

I don't have kids but when I do, I will sing this song to them to assure them that my love is unconditional! I have always felt that with my family and it has been the greatest gift of all! So if you have kids or someone you care for, you might want to play this song for them to let them know that they are never alone because feeling totally alone can be one of the scariest moments in a person's life.

You are Exceptional

So today I have two things that I want you to check out. The first is a You Tube that my mom sent me. www.youtube.com/watch?v=MCmZ2jrQooE It's called, "The Missing piece meets the big O." This made me cry (not too big of a surprise because I'm kinda emotional) but I think everyone will get something from this piece. The second thing I want you to check out is a song by JoJo that I feel contributes to this video. The song is called, "Exceptional."

To me both the video and song made me take a look at myself and really question whether or not I am completely happy with who I am and if I appreciate all of the things I have to offer the world, my family, my friends, and someday a significant other. The video is about the journey we take to find that one special person that we will spend the rest of our lives with. It shows us how many times we come across something that seems like the perfect fit, but for some reason, we can't quite make it work. I think that sometimes we spend too much trying to figure out our perfect fit, questioning ourselves and wondering what's so wrong with us that we can't fit in anywhere. Is this the right question we should be asking ourselves? This video made me realize that maybe it's not my fault for not finding my perfect fit yet. Instead of looking for that fit, maybe I should try and fit with myself. Maybe I should be my main focus and then once I am rolling out on my own, someday I might just stumble upon my other half and instead of fitting to make one, we roll through life together.

Please listen to exceptional, because I really think it helps make us realize how amazing we are just the way we are. Seems like an easy concept to grasp, but boy is it hard. Probably the hardest thing I have ever had to tackle. But I can do it and I will. Starting today, anyone who wants to join me. The challenge...Love who you are, take your own journey towards finding out exactly what great things you have to offer this world. You are EXCEPTIONAL!

In the End

Today I am writing to those of you that have ever felt that you are as low as you could possibly be and that there is no light to your darkness. I am writing to those that feel beat down and hopeless and too tired to fight anymore. How many of you have been there? I know that this past year has really done a number on me. Unless you have been there yourself, you wouldn't understand what it feels like to be so disappointed in yourself. Every day you question why you are in this place and what you did or didn't do to get here. Every day you find someone else to envy and someone else to make you feel useless. But today I am here to tell you that you are not alone and that it is NEVER too late to rise up and change your life.

For me I am finding strength in song (surprise surprise)! More than ever I am holding on to lyrics for inspiration, motivation, comfort, and hope. For you this strength might come from faith, friends, family, words, or just digging deep within yourself and discovering a strength you never knew existed. I BELIEVE with my whole heart that God will never put us in a situation that we are not capable of dealing with. It might take every ounce of courage we have, but we can do it. And we WILL!!!

So today's song..."In the End" by Eric Benet. Please listen to this song and find your strength and rise above whatever struggle you are facing. I believe that in the end we will all surprise ourselves and overcome every obstacle presented in our path toward complete happiness.

I Believe In You and I

What an amazing song I just heard today!! I am almost in tears! This song is called, "I Believe" by Nikki Yanofsky. Please YouTube this song because the music as well as the lyrics are extremely moving and powerful! Her voice is so strong and gives me chills.

This song made me think of my fabulous friends and how together, we have been able to do and experience such exciting and life-changing things. From my friends I have found a strength I did not know existed. Too many times society leads us to believe that in order to be at our best we need to fall in love with someone that will become your life-long partner. This song could very well be written about her husband or boyfriend but I hear it a different way...

I have been blessed with such amazing friends that have supported me through everything and encouraged me to reach every goal and achieve every dream. Without them in my life, I would not have accomplished any of the courageous things in my life. They have made this journey meaningful and memorable. I believe in my friends and what we are capable of as a strong unbreakable force! Together ANYTHING is possible! I believe that this is our moment to shine in this world and I know that we are going to push each other until we have reached our highest peak!!! I love you all and will continue to support you for our entire lives!!!

What are you doing here?

How are you going to leave your mark here on earth? Have you ever thought about it? Are you going to be remembered by your occupation, by the way you inspired others, by the way you loved, or something else? I have given this question a lot of thought my entire life. What am I going to do with my life that will help me be remembered as something great? I don't have to be in the history books, but I was given this life for a reason, and I am positive that the reason was not for me to sit back and enjoy the view. No, I need to get out there and do something that matters. I need to make a difference! Do you want to make a difference?

The song I want you to listen to today is, "I Was Here" by Lady Antebellum! This song is absolutely uplifting, inspiring, and encouraging. When I first heard this song last year I immediately downloaded it and had my sixth graders listen to it. After they heard the song I had them journal about something that they want to do with their lives to leave a mark here on this earth. I was amazed at the responses I had from these children. They had such high aspirations and a drive to make a positive difference in the lives of others. If they can have these dreams of helping others then I know that all of us can find our own special way to touch the lives of others and be remembered when we leave this world.

This song reminds us that we have all be given such unique and special talents that should be embraced and used! Sometimes it is hard to figure out what makes us special, but I promise that "it" exists in EVERYONE! You just have to take the time to look deep within yourself and find what makes you amazing! Once you've found that, challenge yourself to find a way to make a difference in some one's life. Sometimes we think that we need to do something extravagant to touch some one's life, but I know for a fact that the smallest hello or smile can save a life.

So today's challenge is to ask yourself....What am I doing with my time on earth to leave my mark?

My hope for you

Today I want you listen (google lyrics or YouTube) to a song that I used to play every morning to begin my day on the best note possible. This song is called "My Prayers" by Women of Faith Worship Team. This song is so powerful and inspirational. It sends a message that I think everyone should hear on a daily basis.

This song reminds us and encourages us to laugh, enjoy life, step back and embrace every moment, find your true passion, make real and lasting friendships, focus on the positives in life and be content with having an unknown future. Sometimes I forget to cherish the "NOW" and I stress about where I should be and what I should be doing. All I'm doing is blurring my reality and under appreciating the amazing "little" moments and miracles that are happening all around me.

This song also tells us to love, because it is the one real and passionate thing in our lives. Love is such an amazing ability and gift that we all have and give. We can't be blinded to the magic that happens every day, all around us. So my hope you for you today and the rest of your life...Embrace each moment you are given with friends and family because these are the most precious gifts we will ever have. And don't forget to stop, breathe, and find peace and happiness within yourself!!

The other half of life

I think it's time I give you a little background about my current situation. I graduated college in 2008 ready to take on the world as the most influential and inspiring teacher I could be. I got a job in the summer of 2008 as a teacher in an elementary school. I taught that year and had such a memorable experience. I finally thought, "Everything I have wanted and worked so hard for is finally happening!" I guess I have some bad luck, because at the end of the year I was informed I would not be returning due to budget cuts. For the first time in my life, I found myself with no plan, scared to death, and VULNERABLE! I don't do either of those well.

So now here I am after countless hours searching for a teaching job without any luck. I am living at home, subbing when I can, and feeling pretty pathetic. I never imagined myself in this place. These past five months have seemed like three years. I feel as though I am in a rut, unable to find any hope of getting my way out. So today I decided to watch a comedy, making fun of my situation, and rented Post Grad. Besides making me feel as though I wasn't the only person on the planet going through this unemployment crisis, I found a quote that really made me re-evaluate things. At one part of the movie this man says something along the lines of, "Part of life is what you are doing, the other half is who you are doing it with."

This really made me think about my expectations of my life. Yes I want a job, I want to be successful, and I want to leave my mark on this planet more then anything. But am I forgetting the other half of life? I have never truly been in love and this movie made me stop and question if I am experiencing all of the amazing things life has to offer. So my challenge for myself and anyone else reading this...Take a step back and re-evaluate your life. Are you experiencing ALL life has to offer, or are you only getting half?

I know I'm not going to settle for just half!!!

Point to my madness!!!

Hello all!!! So the point of this blog is to share things that have inspired me in hopes to help inspire others. It might be a quote that struck me as interesting, or a song that really spoke to me, or just a thought for the day. I am obsessed with lyrics and find that I can usually find a song for just about anything that is happening in my life either exciting or depressing. Music can motivate, heal, encourage, uplift, sadden, provide hope, and inspire. I will probably reference a lot of songs in here..just a heads-up! I am currently writing my own songs, so I might just get the courage to share some of my own with you at some point.



Like I said I am obsessed with music and lyrics but I promise not everything I write will be about music. But for my first post, I feel it is important to leave you with some song. This song definitely describes me. I am always dreaming about something better, I get bored easily, and I really want to find a way to leave my stamp on this world! I'm not sure how I am going to do it, but I am determined to find a way!!!! This song I actually found when I was watching "One Tree Hill" yes I watch that show!!!! Anyway, the song is, "I want something that I want"..By Grace Potter and Bethany Joy Galeotti. I haven't found a way to paste the lyrics on here yet so if you are interested, you should google the title and check out the song!

I'm Here

This initiates the official groundbreaking of my new bloggie blog! Make sure to check back soon for inspiration -- it's going to be GREAT.